being “cute” is really hard because even when youre angry people just kinda giggle at you and say “aw youre so cute when youre angry.” no. stop. recognize my power.
Sweetheart, let me tell you something no teenager ever believes, but I swear to you is the absolute truth. You fall in love more than once. It’ll happen again. And it’ll be just as amazing and as extraordinary as the first time. And maybe just as painful. But it will happen again, I promise. And until then… Be your own anchor.
#you know that moment in romance movies and books #with a love triangle #where the main character has to choose between the one that everyone hates but makes more sense in social structures #and the one that they’re meant to be with that everyone loves? #like the jock who has to choose between the cheerleader and the “average” girl next door? #well this was a lot like that for me #it looked like derek was really looking at stiles for the first time #giving him his trust and seeing his value as a member of the pack #and i’ll bet anything it has a lot to do with stiles standing up to him in the hospital room #but then he hears jennifer calling for him and he looks away #he goes to her because it’s what he thinks he’s supposed to do #to follow her and sure he knows she’s bad news #but if derek didn’t go to her he wouldn’t be acting how everyone expected him to #if you ask me, which hey you didn’t, but i’ll tell you anyway #derek wanted to stay with stiles and cora #more than anything #but he didn’t and in the end it was all right #but for that one moment #he knew exactly what was important to him #it was that stupid kid who always gets in the way #who always gets in the way of his loneliness #who always gets in his way #and so he looks back not once but twice #twice he looks back to make sure that he still sees stiles the way he does #to see if stiles is looking back #and he is #and it makes derek feel like they might survive again #the thing they’re good at doing #together